Things I Don't Understand
Sep. 12th, 2011 11:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sundaydriver1. How a volunteer writer's group can transform from a "let's encourage everyone who loves to write to come hang out and critique each other's work and continue to pursue the art of writing" to "let's only include those people we like in our little exclusive group where we get to arbitrarily decide who's work qualifies for inclusion in this intensive writing workshop". I literally feel as if I'm back in high school and I was deemed not good enough to hang with the popular kids. I'm still flabbergasted as to how this place I felt so comfortable in, just a few months ago, now makes me feel so damn awkward and ignored. I don't get it. The only good thing is the person who ran this group before emailed me and told me she still loves my story that I wrote this summer and encouraged me to continue it.
2. How I could not find anybody to take over the available room in my apartment a week ago and now I have 30 people vying for it. *am a little overwhelmed*
3. How I continue to not reach the important people in my industry who will actually help me secure a new job. It's frustrating and heartbreaking and exhausting to worry about this on a daily basis.
4. Why I haven't had an appetite for the past three days and wondering when it'll come back.
5. Why, on certain days, no matter what I do, I just don't feel good enough, (having my stories/writing skills rejected twice in one week certainly doesn't help).need to develop a thicker skin
2. How I could not find anybody to take over the available room in my apartment a week ago and now I have 30 people vying for it. *am a little overwhelmed*
3. How I continue to not reach the important people in my industry who will actually help me secure a new job. It's frustrating and heartbreaking and exhausting to worry about this on a daily basis.
4. Why I haven't had an appetite for the past three days and wondering when it'll come back.
5. Why, on certain days, no matter what I do, I just don't feel good enough, (having my stories/writing skills rejected twice in one week certainly doesn't help).
